Beautifully Broken

               Dear IC; where do I begin to express how I feel about you? It’s time to tell you what I truly feel in my heart of hearts, deep in my soul. I will be as Honest, and blunt as I need to and I don’t care if you are hurt, you have done enough damage to me physically and mentally. I no longer am going to let you, run me down, like you’ve done all this time. You think you’re so strong, you think you can chain me to this disease .I’ve got NEWS for you….. Are you listening, I don’t just want you to hear this, I want you to listen. Its time I take my life back…. And nothing is going to stop me from doing so.                 You have run over me , but I’m getting back up ….              You have made me feel like I’m nothing…WELL I’m SOMEBODY and I’m Somebody Special!   ...

                                Hello my Beautiful family, my readers, I hope today has not been too bad of a pain day for you. Before I jump into the next part of my IC journey, I want to just say how much I enjoy doing this for you. It makes me feel good to know that I can use the gifts God has given me to encourage you on this very tiresome journey we all face. When I really think about it, it’s very therapeutic for me to write out all these feelings. I feel to really connect with another human being and understand the pain, whether it be physical or emotional. You need to empathize not just sympathize with them.                                So my journey continued, So many times in li...

                              Good Afternoon Sweet Family. It’s a cold afternoon, I looked out my window and it’s snowing, and the snowflakes are huge. I stepped out to bring the trash out and a snowflake landed on my nose. I paused for a brief moment and laughed to myself, it was so pretty seeing those flakes fall, yes it’s the simple things that make me smile.                      Though last night as I lay in bed, hubby was fast asleep next to me, the pain came over my body like a mighty rushing wind, and the Tears began to fall from my eyes. I tried so hard to stop them, but they just kept falling. I didn’t want to wake hubby from his peaceful slumber, so I closed my eyes and pretended I was someplace else and that I wasn’t in pain. I ...

                          My heart breaks every time i hear one of my Precious IC sisters who are Mothers, feel like they aren't Good enough or they aren't doing enough.This entry is FOR YOU. Love is Many things and comes in many forms.'Iam  a mother, but to a child in heaven.I know this, there are so many children in THIS world who have no one, who don't have  a place to call home, or a place to rest their weary heads.Who don't know the love a parent can give.SO LISTEN up ALL moms who suffer with Chronic pain, who feels she cant play with her child as much as she wants to.This MESSAGE if for you~ are you listening.                    Though i dont have my own children, i have a goddaughter and nephew who mean the world to my husband and I.I even helped raise and ...

         Peace on Earth. can it be a reality?We live in a world that's broken and full of pain and heartache, hate and division.Our bodies are broken, dreams are shattered and lives torn part at the seams.So you ask how can peace reign here on earth, when all this surrounds us us daily.Its not a easy journey.We all want peace, but where are you searching for it?Its not in  your accomplishments, its not in your status in society,its not in the friends we have, or the house we live in,True Peace is not as the world  gives us.        True peace cant be shaken,True Peace is Eternal,true peace can be a reality, even amidst the chaos in this life.to find this peace we need to look to the gift Giver, peace that passes all our understanding.peace that cant be shaken.Life is a fragile gift.We all want, we yearn for  the calm serene tranquility of peace.When you think of peace, you may think of a remote island, away from the hustle and...

                                             When you’re going through a tough time, and you feel alone, there is nothing more comforting than having someone in your corner that really cares and take the time to understand your pain and where you’re coming from. When you suffer with IC, you have a lot of bad days. When you find a caring doctor and a team who wants to help you get answers and have such compassion in the way they talk to you, then it’s a GOOD DAY!     My doctors at Mass General gynecology department referred me to Dr. Allison Bailey.I can tell you she was a Godsend from the moment I walked into her office. I could tell right away she loved what she did and she cared about her patients and the pain they endured, and to a IC patient that means everything...