When the Tears fall,Deep Breath~



                              Good Afternoon Sweet Family. It’s a cold afternoon, I looked out my window and it’s snowing, and the snowflakes are huge. I stepped out to bring the trash out and a snowflake landed on my nose. I paused for a brief moment and laughed to myself, it was so pretty seeing those flakes fall, yes it’s the simple things that make me smile.
                     Though last night as I lay in bed, hubby was fast asleep next to me, the pain came over my body like a mighty rushing wind, and the Tears began to fall from my eyes. I tried so hard to stop them, but they just kept falling. I didn’t want to wake hubby from his peaceful slumber, so I closed my eyes and pretended I was someplace else and that I wasn’t in pain. I pictured myself on a beautiful beach, and I was all alone, the sun was just coming up over the horizon and the colors were magnificent More beautiful than anything I had ever set my eyes upon. I was sitting at the shoreline with my feet buried in the sand. The water was a crystal clear sky blue, I could see to the bottom.
                   I felt so at peace, not just because of my surroundings, but because God had his arms wrapped around me so tightly. There was a very gentle breeze blowing through my hair. I took a deep breath and smelled that ocean air. I glanced down to my left and there was the most beautiful seashell I’ve ever seen, I picked it up and it was so perfect. Peaceful was the only word that came to my mind as I sat there in the stillness of the early morning sun.
                I   opened my eyes and the pain was still there, so I prayed.. I prayed for rest to come, I prayed for all of you who were tossing and turning from your pain. It’s so tough, but I’m really trying to live in the moment. Not thinking of what was, or what will be, but what IS. Readers, family, deep breath, we forget to do that at times, and get caught up in that moment of pain, and then the feelings come rushing in and depression can set in. We need to realize we can’t do it all for everyone. We have to put ourselves first in some cases and give our bodies the Tender loving care it desperately needs.
         So Breath, you will get through this……Open your eyes to the BEAUTY in your life, don’t let this pain  take you out of living a LIFE you Deserve~

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