Poetry~ "Its In Moments Like This I Live For"



Another night of endless pain, hard to remember  the life i had before all this pain began, another night I face, the world sleeps as I lie awake thinking of another time, another place, a place far away from all the pain and the tears, if only I could go back so many years.
   As I sit here with tears falling from my eyes I cling to the words I  know my Savior said” never will I leave you, never will I forsake you” its in moments like this I so desire to be wrapped up in the arms of my loving Lord.
   Outside I can hear the river flow on by, and the small waterfall at the end. it’s the way I love to  begin and end my days, hearing the sound of God’s creation  the sound reaches into my soul I feel its echo through my body, I sense the peace and the tranquility it brings its in moments like this, amidst the pain that I live for.
  Day after day as time ticks away, the hours slip by, they give away to days, days turn into weeks and months, and the years all tick by through the hourglass are our days.
  Another day I find myself on my knees to pray. the words don’t always come out the way I want, but God knows my heart i cry out your name, some days I cry out Lord just take me away, to another time, another place, but then I think of my amazing husband , the way he loves me for me, the way, he lives out his vows. All I have to do is think of his sweet caring eyes, his face, and I smile. In moments like this, they are what I live for.
  Working through the pain, the best we know how. Giving it our all, our all is our best! Pushing on through, when the going gets tough, putting on my brave face for all those who love us best. When I see the pictures of my Godchildren and their beautiful smiling faces, I know I have to press on for them, because they are my world and I would never want to hurt them. I think upon each memory and those that are to come, it’s in moments like this I live for!
 When my heart is weary, when I feel every emotion, every pain and I’ve cried my last tear, my best friends know just what to say to lift me up out of that dark gray, that cloud  the descends. The laughs I have I would not trade for the world its in moments like this I live for!
  When my pain lets up some and I can take a walk and gaze upon the beauty of the blooming trees and the flowers the roses, the tulips its in moments like that I live for!
   Sharing in my struggles, my pain and my tears, my story you say resembles yours, which is how I know you understand. The joy my IC and fibro families have brought to my life cannot be put in words. your love has carried me so many days and nights, you have given me a place to lay it all out, to be myself, to not be  afraid of my pain, you hold me up, encourage me each day, it’s in moments like this that I live for!

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