Beautifully Broken

    Do you ever feel like you’re in a whirlwind of circumstances and everywhere you look you feel as though your spinning around and you can’t get off the ride? I know I feel like that a lot. I feel like im being pulled   in a dozen different directions, trying to be everything to everyone all at once, and all the while im forgetting the one person I need to be taking care of, and love so I can have something to give back       I tend to always put myself at the bottom of the priority list, My responsibilities are endless   some are mothers, while others work outside the home and others are in school, friendships and people always needing or wanting our attention, but we always forget to give ourselves some of that attention.    We tend to lose ourselves in this disease and all the things we have to be to all. We can’t lose this fight, not,, our sanity. If we do not care for ourselves then, we cannot truly give or love others. ...

  Hello Friends, How are all my IC warriors doing on this damp rainy afternoon?   Today is the official last day of IC awareness MONTH, but in REALITY it never ends for awareness and us should never STOP! Can we say AMEN! I cannot hear ya! Ive had been really struggling these last few days with a Constant flare that just will not calm down no matter what I do. I know you know where im coming from and my heart hurt for each of you, all of us! When my pain gets that bad, I can’t think straight and I get severely nauseous and then it plays on my emotions and I get very depressed and feel defeated!   Yet as the rain falls outside I find myself reflecting on my pain and my life and I said to myself, my pain outwardly and in my heart is like the rain.     The rain falls like my tears onto my pillow. Through my tears I found myself being thankful for my IC family, there really are not words to express gratitude and thankfulness and a heart that overflows with jo...

                                             I feel broken, but you cannot see the raw harsh reality of what we feel. I’m a good pretender I can hid it well behind my smile, but every now and then a tear make it way out of my eyes and down my cheeks for you to see. I feel broken, I feet tattered I feel frail I feel like the world continues spinning, while I stand still.                                           At times I wonder what’s the use, its not something I get better from, how else can I tell you ive spoken loud and clear you hear me speak but you don’t listen to m...

 Good evening readers; I know it’s been a long time since I sat down and wrote here in my IC blog and for that I truly apologize. There were a few reasons why I was not writing much most of the summer. First, was I got very bad writers block and I was dealing with a lot of emotional and physical health issues.   Then just recently, my beloved grandfather passed away from a heart attack he had behind the wheel. I’m dealing the very best I can, and since I haven’t wrote in so long and now its September and IC awareness month is finally upon us I had to sit down and write   so I hope that this poem encourages you all and uplifts you in your life right where you are in your journey   Have you ever felt like your living in a glass bubble? Have you ever felt like you are watching your life go by, as if you are watching a movie of you take place right in front of your eyes. so many times I have felt like that, going through the emotions from day to day, but not reall...