Part of Finding Myself is Letting Go~



  Do you ever feel like you’re in a whirlwind of circumstances and everywhere you look you feel as though your spinning around and you can’t get off the ride? I know I feel like that a lot. I feel like im being pulled  in a dozen different directions, trying to be everything to everyone all at once, and all the while im forgetting the one person I need to be taking care of, and love so I can have something to give back
     I tend to always put myself at the bottom of the priority list, My responsibilities are endless  some are mothers, while others work outside the home and others are in school, friendships and people always needing or wanting our attention, but we always forget to give ourselves some of that attention.
   We tend to lose ourselves in this disease and all the things we have to be to all. We can’t lose this fight, not,, our sanity. If we do not care for ourselves then, we cannot truly give or love others.  we need to be mentally, emotionally and physically able to some point  have enough strength to reach out and give, we can’t be a doormat for someone to wipe their feet on, to relax and do what they desire without any thought or concern for us!
  There are a lot of you who have huge hearts out there, who wear them on your sleeve.  I am always giving of myself.  I am really working; on trying my best to care of myself too, so I’ll be able to reach out with true strength and hope. I won’t be hanging by a thread , ready to cave in. there will be days, plenty of them that my strength is the bare essentials, but I know that by talking out my feelings and rewarding myself with me time, then I won’t lose myself in this chaos.
   I know that part of finding myself, is letting go of negativity, stress, and being the best version of ME so I then in turn can give you my best!  Stop trying to live up to everyone’s expectations. Everyone has their opinion of what’s best for you, and though its important to seek out good advice at times, we also need to know when to close the door behind us and say no more. Stand up for yourself and do what you know is best for you! no one can live your life for you except you.
   If you are trying to live, your life through the eyes of another you will not get far, except a lot of frustration and resentment! Do not loose yourself in trying to find who you are, because you are so much more than a diagnosis, or pain. Stigmas do not define us, we define who we are, by the kind of character, we have and the values we hold dear! So let go of what was and look to the horizon of a new day, once you find yourself and the beauty you possess do not let anyone take that from you!

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