Beautifully Broken

             Good afternoon my Beautiful IC Family. Today I will be talking about mundane days. You know the kind that im talking about; Today is one of those days. The day that seems so much like the one before, the day which you know there will be many more of. I felt lonely, even though my husband would be home soon. I knew I had many in my corner who totally understood, but the loneliness covered me like a blanket. Today is one of those days.            Nothing I did would make my pain let up,   if only for a moment of normalcy. I didn’t want my mind to go to those   negative thoughts, you know the ones I’m talking about, I didn’t want to cry, because I’m slowly running out of tears, and if I were to start, those   tears would not let up. Though I know crying can be a cleansing for our souls, there was no one there to wipe them away when they started to...

                       Good evening my readers, as I write in my blog tonight, I started to think how many issues surround having IC. All the worries we have with this disease, so many topics that I want to make sure I address.   Tonight’s topic is going to be about Friendship. How do we manage our friendships? How do we stay emotionally healthy and not let unhealthy individuals    move into our lives. It’s a important thing to address, as we all know from experience, it’s not easy task living with chronic pain, chronic illness .not everyone will understand.   What we take in, and those we keep company with says a lot about our character, and how others treat us, says a lot about theirs.                  I have a philosophy that I live by, and that is, we need people in our...

                  She walks into the doctor’s office; the pain is excoriating its written all over her face. She is hoping this time, she is going to be believed, and this time will be different. She can’t function; she has lost her sparkle, which once lit up her eyes. She begins to tell every detail, of what she is feeling, she has been there before, as if her voice is just a recorder, telling of her pain again and again. The doctor looks at her, as if he questions the truth, that’s starring him right in the face.               He doubts her words and the humiliation stabs her like a knife through her heart, she tries to hide her tears, but she can’t, they spill over, she looks, no word need to be spoken, she has said all she can say, her heart is screaming help me for Goodness sake, this is inhumane, I’m a Person, I have a disease. ...

                    This entry was very tough to write, because for years I struggled with Bipolar, some know this, many do not. My bipolar has been stable for years; I went from being on 24 pills a day to none for quite some time with my doctor’s approval, to now on 2 meds. Then when my world turned upside down when I started dealing with my physical health, it affected my depression, because I went from working outside the home, as a toddler teacher and being in college full time, to now unable to work. I had to out my life on hold. This was heartbreaking because I had to stop something I had such a passion for, and that was working with children.                       The last few days, I was having a tough time, it’s as if I go through phases with this disease, I’m not angry anymore. Bu...

                                      ~ Every day in our lives should be a day to celebrate the beautiful gift of Love~ Today is Valentine’s Day, and I want to express my love for my IC family and what you all mean to me and how profound of a impact you’ve had on my life .I’ve told you before, but I want to TELL you all again just what the gift of your friendship means.                                    Love comes in many forms, The Agape Love of God. Eros love between a husband and wife. And then there is philo love between friends. It’s a deep love for those whom you consider friends .A love that stands by those in our lives i...