Dealing With the Mundane Days of Chronic Illiness~



             Good afternoon my Beautiful IC Family. Today I will be talking about mundane days. You know the kind that im talking about; Today is one of those days. The day that seems so much like the one before, the day which you know there will be many more of. I felt lonely, even though my husband would be home soon. I knew I had many in my corner who totally understood, but the loneliness covered me like a blanket. Today is one of those days.
           Nothing I did would make my pain let up,  if only for a moment of normalcy. I didn’t want my mind to go to those  negative thoughts, you know the ones I’m talking about, I didn’t want to cry, because I’m slowly running out of tears, and if I were to start, those  tears would not let up. Though I know crying can be a cleansing for our souls, there was no one there to wipe them away when they started to fall. Today is one of those mundane days, I’ve had so many of them I’ve lost count and I know there will be many more of. It’s hard at times to fathom living like this for the rest of my life.
       What do I have to look forward to? More appointments, more surgeries….. More relentless pain, just for once I wish I had control over my body and how it feels. This was  how I was feeling,  I know this isn’t just my journey, and that not what this blog is for, to just tell my story, but to share in yours, this is our journey though each of our paths look different , were all fighting this together. Here we are in another mundane day living with chronic illness. Trying to figure out what treatments will be next.
       When these mundane days hit and they will, face them head on, because inside of you is strength, you have what it takes to get through days like these. Take time to take care of you. I know its not always easy, when you have a pile of responsibilities on your shoulders. Do your best not to get worked up, we all know that will only lead us down the path of depression, guilt and isolation. Mundane days we all have them, it’s tough, but knowing that you aren’t the only one having them makes the load a little easy to carry. Even through these mundane days, we will see the sun shine through, we WILL see the beautiful little reminders of Hope, yes even on those mundane days.

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