The Winds of Change....



Today I woke with a smile on my face, somewhat a tough time sleeping last night, but when I did fall asleep, I slept soundly. I thought today will be a beautiful day, because it’s a day the Lord has made. So I forced myself up, got my small cup of coffee and curled up on the couch with my bible so I could start my day off in his word. Outside I can hear the wind blow and its cold out there, im so thankful I’m inside where its warm, but my body still feels the cold and this cold wrecks havoc on this body of mine.
                              Having the IC, and fibromyalgia and arthritis, my body I hate so much, its like my 35 year old body is trapped inside a 60 year old body, I despise this. I know I can speak for a lot of you, when I say our bodies feel the WINDS of CHANGE, when the weather changes our body reacts and we do our best to adapt, but its no easy task, let me tell you.
                     So many time my body rages, and if I have some kind of plans, it tries with all its might to win over me. Sometimes it gets the best of me, other times im able to say NO…. and I can push through. There are so many levels of pain, in so many forms on this body of mine. The days I can feel the spasms and jabbing pains and aches in every joint and every muscle, I do my best to put on that brave face and push on through, I envision it as im grabbing this monster and shaking it, and I yell you’re not going to get the best of me today.
                        We know the seasons change and our bodies change right alongside them. Its important to know our bodies and what they can and can’t do, what our limits are, when to push and when to pull back and not feel guilty because of it. Take care of these bodies, give it tender loving care, because your worth it, you deserve it, so think of ways ahead of time that will help you deal with your body when those flares rear their ugly heads. We cant always predict when they are coming on, but we can be ready to fight back like the WARRIORS I know YOU ALL ARE~

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