Poetry~"Looking in from the Outside~



 Good evening readers; I know it’s been a long time since I sat down and wrote here in my IC blog and for that I truly apologize. There were a few reasons why I was not writing much most of the summer. First, was I got very bad writers block and I was dealing with a lot of emotional and physical health issues.  Then just recently, my beloved grandfather passed away from a heart attack he had behind the wheel. I’m dealing the very best I can, and since I haven’t wrote in so long and now its September and IC awareness month is finally upon us I had to sit down and write  so I hope that this poem encourages you all and uplifts you in your life right where you are in your journey
  Have you ever felt like your living in a glass bubble? Have you ever felt like you are watching your life go by, as if you are watching a movie of you take place right in front of your eyes. so many times I have felt like that, going through the emotions from day to day, but not really living the way I want to, the way I always dreamed I would, this poem describes those feelings. I hope you can relate.

                                                              ~Looking in from the Outside~
  Day by day I try to make it through, each emotion I feel, the raw tears that fall down my cheeks. The Tiredness that makes me wants to give into defeat. The loneliness at times that engulfs my spirit that, ties its chain around my life; makes me feels like what is the use? You on the outside might not see  what I try to express time and time again, but I feel chained at times to this person that is NOT me.
   Looking in from the outside, trying to be whom I want. Looking in from the outside, trying to make the best of what hand ive been given. Looking in from the outside, some days just fade away from my memory is who iam disappearing with all that i was. I don’t want this disease to reflect who iam,  iam a fighter, I am a STRONG WOMAN iam a STRONG MAN.
I don’t want my life to pass me by. I m in pain, but I will not let it take me out of the game .Ill look for the beauty, that day holds, ill cherish the precious golden gift of life as if its fine gold. I don’t want to keep looking in, hoping one day that will be me living, not just surviving, no longer will I let this disease have the power it once had over me.
 Today is the day I step out from the shadows, today is the day no longer do I look in from the outside, TODAY im looking out toward the Future with A renewed hope in my eyes and a burning passion of life running through my viens!
 The end~
Warriors Stay Golden, and live LIFE to the fullest because you deserve to be happy, you deserve to experience every ounce of joy you can~

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