The True Strength of a IC Warrior~

   I fight my biggest battles in the darkness of night, as the lights go out and the streetlights dim, everyone is asleep, that's when my tears  begin!The tears sting my eyes.I try to grasp for a anchor to cling to.Though at times i feel im sinking faster than i can stay afloat!Im doing my best im giving it my all, so why dont that seem good enough, im running on empty and im tying to find and hold fast to that tiny thread of hope so i dont sink deeper than iam.
   This pain takes every bit of energy i have, all my strength and every ounce of courage i have to keep going.I  will keep lifting my head, though there are days, i feel like  its diminshing.I will dig deeper  so i can keep breathing.I know the strongest and the bravest are those who have fought the hardest! who at times there tears go unoticed by the  outside world.
We wear our battle scars to show the warrior paths we have taken. so live in the moment, cherish  each day when my pain doesn't try to take me out of the equation.Live with your head held high and remember this if you remember anything WE  are not strong because we live,WERE alive because were strong!

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