A new Day..A New Chapter
Good afternoon readers, i know that its been a long time since i wrote in here and im so sorry for being away for so long, even with the good intentions i have about keeping up with my 3 blogs, life happens and i get busy or my health just isn't what i need it to be , which keeps me from writing here telling you about my journey and talking about issues that are important to the IC community.
Last i updated was me telling you that i was going in for the Intertim and since i last wrote here i got the intertim phase 1 and phase 2 completed and this is my journey so far.
Have you ever felt like you were standing on the edge of a cliff, overlooking the mountainside.The view is breathtaking, the blue velvet sky stretches for as far as the eyes can see.Not one cloud is in the sky.You see mountains in the distance.you can see everything from this point.You hear the birds chirp in the trees, its silence, just beauty is what you hear.Its a perfect day, in every way it seems.Then in the distance you see a small black cloud that is making its way to you.
Now picture yourself standing on a ledge like that mountain looking at your life through a wide angel lens, you see your dreams, you see the past, the present and the future of what you hope your life will be.You reach for your dreams, but they are just out of reach, you cant find good footing and you feel like there is a black cloud that is ascending overhead.
That's how i felt with my IC and now my IC journey has started a new chapter in my book.The pages have tuned and its a blank page.after struggling many years with little to no relief,god opened the doors for me to get the intertim.August 243rd i had phase 1, which was very successful, then got ready for phase 2 and again was very successful.I was going into unknown territory, but willing to give it my all and i did.I wanted to know what normal felt like or as close to it as possible!Normal was just a distant memory for me, it was no kind of life.Yet with God as my pilot and loving supportive husband and family, best friends, church family and IC family i embraced a new challenge with optimism. and of course a amazing doctor who was there every step of the way!
I know it was Gods will i had the intertim surgery done, Sunday before my procedure i had all the pastors at our Church pray over me and lay hands on me, including my husband and as soon as they all started to pray i felt such a peace come over me i knew it was the holy spirit leading the way!Before my surgery i was going the bathroom35/40 times a day sometimes every 10/15 minutes, now i go between 7/12 times on a good day.i will still have bad days with the urgency and frequency but overall the interstim helped tremendously with that, helped some with the pain, not all, just so everyone understands the Interstim is not meant to help take pain way, but can in some cases relieve it a little.
Im wrapped up in the arms of Jesus that i know without a doubt, hes been walking beside me this entire journey.when i first tried to get it done back in may of this year the insurance company flat out denied me, i was crushed and disappointed is putting it lightly, but we did not give in, or give up the fight, we JUST PRAYED harder and more people prayed on my behalf.Then God did a miracle and through my doctors pushing for me, rewording things, doing tons of tests, and most of all prayers,God heard our cries and it was approved.I know it was approved because it was meant to help me and now here iam, though its not a cure and i have other health issues concerning pain like fibromaylgia and PFD, im doing a lot better IC wise. and im getting ready to start process of getting back into the workforce and work my way up to part time.
I'm moving forward, one step at a time! I'm in the hands of the ALL knowing God! who brought me from where i was to here!Lord you are getting all the glory and praise!As i now overlook that mountainside i see the fog clearing, the sun beginning to shine again.I feel strength returning slowly, i see a glimpse of who i was before IC took so much from me.I still have a ways to go. i still have struggles, but the light is returning to my once dim eyes! IC you don't own me, i see a future full of promise.Thank you Lord for bringing me this far.I will continue to be a voice for those who cannot speak, i will continue to advocate! i will let Jesus use me to speak hope into your lives!I'm so exited for this next chapter, one day, one moment at a time!
Last i updated was me telling you that i was going in for the Intertim and since i last wrote here i got the intertim phase 1 and phase 2 completed and this is my journey so far.
Have you ever felt like you were standing on the edge of a cliff, overlooking the mountainside.The view is breathtaking, the blue velvet sky stretches for as far as the eyes can see.Not one cloud is in the sky.You see mountains in the distance.you can see everything from this point.You hear the birds chirp in the trees, its silence, just beauty is what you hear.Its a perfect day, in every way it seems.Then in the distance you see a small black cloud that is making its way to you.
Now picture yourself standing on a ledge like that mountain looking at your life through a wide angel lens, you see your dreams, you see the past, the present and the future of what you hope your life will be.You reach for your dreams, but they are just out of reach, you cant find good footing and you feel like there is a black cloud that is ascending overhead.
That's how i felt with my IC and now my IC journey has started a new chapter in my book.The pages have tuned and its a blank page.after struggling many years with little to no relief,god opened the doors for me to get the intertim.August 243rd i had phase 1, which was very successful, then got ready for phase 2 and again was very successful.I was going into unknown territory, but willing to give it my all and i did.I wanted to know what normal felt like or as close to it as possible!Normal was just a distant memory for me, it was no kind of life.Yet with God as my pilot and loving supportive husband and family, best friends, church family and IC family i embraced a new challenge with optimism. and of course a amazing doctor who was there every step of the way!
I know it was Gods will i had the intertim surgery done, Sunday before my procedure i had all the pastors at our Church pray over me and lay hands on me, including my husband and as soon as they all started to pray i felt such a peace come over me i knew it was the holy spirit leading the way!Before my surgery i was going the bathroom35/40 times a day sometimes every 10/15 minutes, now i go between 7/12 times on a good day.i will still have bad days with the urgency and frequency but overall the interstim helped tremendously with that, helped some with the pain, not all, just so everyone understands the Interstim is not meant to help take pain way, but can in some cases relieve it a little.
Im wrapped up in the arms of Jesus that i know without a doubt, hes been walking beside me this entire journey.when i first tried to get it done back in may of this year the insurance company flat out denied me, i was crushed and disappointed is putting it lightly, but we did not give in, or give up the fight, we JUST PRAYED harder and more people prayed on my behalf.Then God did a miracle and through my doctors pushing for me, rewording things, doing tons of tests, and most of all prayers,God heard our cries and it was approved.I know it was approved because it was meant to help me and now here iam, though its not a cure and i have other health issues concerning pain like fibromaylgia and PFD, im doing a lot better IC wise. and im getting ready to start process of getting back into the workforce and work my way up to part time.
I'm moving forward, one step at a time! I'm in the hands of the ALL knowing God! who brought me from where i was to here!Lord you are getting all the glory and praise!As i now overlook that mountainside i see the fog clearing, the sun beginning to shine again.I feel strength returning slowly, i see a glimpse of who i was before IC took so much from me.I still have a ways to go. i still have struggles, but the light is returning to my once dim eyes! IC you don't own me, i see a future full of promise.Thank you Lord for bringing me this far.I will continue to be a voice for those who cannot speak, i will continue to advocate! i will let Jesus use me to speak hope into your lives!I'm so exited for this next chapter, one day, one moment at a time!
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