In Memory... as I Sit and i Reflect on my Mother in Law~



        Good evening readers….I’ve finally recovered from my surgery just over a week ago. Though I’m tired and my fibro is acting up, I’m in good spirits. This entry is not going to be one of regular entries pertaining to IC. This entry will share with you about an amazing woman that I had the opportunity to not just know, but who was my mother in law. Yesterday April 15th was the 12th anniversary since my beloved, mother in law Kathy went to her Eternal home to be with Her Lord.
      Here it is 12 years later, and I still miss her as if it was just yesterday. I think of her often, she comes to my mind at the most unexpected times. As thankful as I ‘am for the time I had her in my life, she was taken from me too soon. Only 3 years after don and I said I do. God called her home.
       I reflect on the amazing strength of this woman, and the lasting legacy that she left behind. She had a love for God that was so evident in the way she lived her life, she lived out her faith daily. The love she had for her husband my father in law Donald Edward, her son and me and all the lives she touched. You couldn’t help but be a better person for knowing her. Though I learned to deal with this loss, you still never fully get over it , when you love someone  in this way, the bond we had was special, from the first time we connected, she understood my depression. She always knew just the right words to comfort my heart right at that very moment.
       I do find comfort I knowing one day, I will see her smiling face again and feel her arms around me. After she passed away, I had a very tough time coping, God gave me a gift of a very special vision, dream of her, and she told me that she was still with me, it was like she was talking to me just as though she was really there, when I woke the next morning, I felt such peace, I couldn’t even explain to don, my loving husband without tears streaming down my face, I knew then I was going to be ok. She was still a part of me, she was not just tucked away in my memories, she was right there, and I could feel her.
       Her wisdom was deep, her love was strong, and her hugs were amazing. She had the biggest heart of gold. What I remember most and miss the most if the prayer warrior she was. She would pray with us right on the spot, or tell us as soon as I get off this phone kids, I’m praying for you, and when this woman prayed, heaven heard. I know if she still was there, she would be so proud of me for sharing my story in all the ways iam. I wonder at times what advice she would have to offer, but I know if she was here still physically, her presence and strength and prayers would carry me through me dealing with this chronic disease.
      The strength she gave me then carried me through many dark days, I still feel that strength from her, little did I realize after all this time, and her love and prayers would still be felt carrying me through the struggles im going through right now. Her love and legacy is still felt in so many ways, that even the depths of deaths grip could not break apart. I love you and I miss you and your forever engraved on my Heart Kathy~ thank you readers for letting me share this part of my life with you, and giving you a glimpse into the angel of a mother in law I had!

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