When My Tears Begin to Flow~



        I try to be a very organized person, I even make a blog schedule so im keeping track and giving enough time to each blog. But like with everything in life, there comes a time where you just go with the flow and step away from the schedule and do what’s put on your heart. And that’s what this entry is, it’s a heart moment, I feel like I need to post this. You all are my extended family whether I know you or not, we all fight this battle together.
      Last night I had one of those evenings, when I just broke down and the tears flowed from my eyes and down my cheeks, I could not stop them. I felt overwhelmed from all angles. I know many of you are feeling so overwhelmed with pain, with life and feel like your back is up against the wall. One of the ways ive dealt with life’s blows is to put my pen to paper and write a poem, out of my deepest hurts have flowed some of my best poetry, out of the brokenness, comes forth beauty in the form of words to touch the human soul.
     So here is the poem that’s on my heart right now. I hope it encourages you and lifts up your weary soul~
                                                            “The Tears Began to Flow”
   I’m sitting here thinking of how I got from there to here, how did my life change in a matter of time? So many thoughts flood my mind; so many times I just break down and cry, I ask myself, where I go from here. There are moments I wonder how I can fight, when my strength is fading through the night. Every time I go to stand, im knocked down again, my back is up against the wall, the ground is sinking and I see my dreams fading, im reaching out  for any thread to hold fast to… and then the tears began to flow, down my face on my pillowcase. I turn my head so you don’t see me cry, im afraid youll leave,.
Yes there are those who will walk away, they don’t deserve a piece of your heart; give only to those who reach back. The pain will try to drown out your cries, feelings of inadequacy will try to beat you down, what do you do, you fight back like the warriors you are, Warriors fight battles, they have battle scars, it just shows how far we’ve come in this war.
 We can’t always smile, but we have the strength deep within our souls to push on through the cold dark nights, when we are unsure what the outcome will be. Sometimes we need to just feel the feeling we have, let it be, let the tears flow, they cleanse the soul, they wash away the pain we aren’t meant to be brave all the time, but we have courage to make it through .when those tears flow, remind yourself its ok to break down, its ok to cry, its ok to reach out, don’t bear the load alone.
Rise up mothers, daughters and friends, Fathers, sons. Rise up, let your weary soul be renewed, let the gentle wind of peace cover you, let the wings of your Savior carry you, through the pain, through your  tears, through the heartache, through the loneliness, through the hopelessness you feel.
Jesus knows every tear, every tear you cry, he sees that fall from your eyes. He  takes you in and says child I understand, im not letting go of your hand, though the storm rages on, my strength is stronger, my love is deeper,, ill carry you through, even when those tears flow~ the end~
 Friends im praying you through~ if there is any way I can encourage you, feel free to contact me through face book, through email at NatalieMacangel@gmail.com  or send me a comment on my blog, im here for you, I DO this BLOG for my readers~ May God Bless you all~

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