When your World turns Upside Down, Gods Providence Lifts you Up~

   It was early this morning when I wrote this entry out. While the rest of the world slept,  I was awoken with excruciating pain that radiated from my bladder to my back and shooting down both legs. I had been sleep for a hour, only to be woken from this horrific disease. This entry will be a personal update of what is going on in my life right now, Not just with my IC, but other circumstances that I wish I didn’t have to write about. Yet I know as much as I hurt, and as much as im overwhelmed by these trails, I know God is there in the midst, I know many of you are in the same boat or close to it, my heart breaks for each of you.

    It was about 1am when I sat down on the couch to write this out this morning. It was so quiet outside I could hear the crickets chirping and the clock ticking by.I heard God say be STILL…… then the lyrics to Carries Underwood’s song Jesus take the wheel came to my mind.”Jesus take the wheel, take it from my hands, Jesus take the wheel, I can’t do this on my own, I’m letting go, Jesus take the wheel take it from y hands!”

  My husband is a amazing man, a man who strives to be the Man of God and husband God has called him to be. He is unable to find work, even with his B.A degree. He was let go from his job in March. Every day he does look for work, I can tell he gets frustrated when they say he has to much experience or schooling or not enough. He knows God will provide and that His grace is sufficient, his providence does not end.  Because he has not been able to find work we have fallen behind in paying our rent, the bills are piling up. Long story short we have been informed we have to be off our property by October 1^st. one month, our place is in bad shape, so we have wanted to move for a long time, but ddint have the means to. Now were being forced to.

  Its like one loss after another, between going to so many doctors appointments and trying to pack and move, but knowing I have to have it done in a time frame now, is really  overwhelming task.Im thankful we have family and friends willing to help out. We are in process of applying for emergency housing., but it could take awhile. Its like a bad dream, yet were living it for real.all the while all this going on is affecting my IC and fibro.

   Its like our lives changed overnight. There are moments out of the blue I will break down and start crying, ill be honest im scared, ive never been ina situation like this before. Moving is a big undertaking when you know where your going. We do not know where we will be in a month. Family and friends  have offered to help in different ways! God is still GOOD even in the midts of this!

  For the last week and half my husband and  I have been coming over to our church in the evening and just praying, so we have no distractions of any kind! No noise, just Us and God! Few nights ago when we did it, I started praying and the tears started to fall, I just poured out the contents of my heart to my Heavenly Father.

  I know God is in control, but there is so much uncertainty right now.I fasted yesterday and came before God to petion our needs, knowing he cares for the sparrows of the air, all the more so he cares for his Precious children.This is a new chapter, our unknown future is in the hands of all ALL knowing all powerful God.This season reminds me of the serenity prayer……

God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, courage to change the things I can and wisdom to know the difference ect…. That is the main theme of the prayer. The words echo in my mind. That poem is by: Reinhold Niebuhr

  Such truth is speaks, it speaks to my heart. ive always found comfort in those words, but yet at this time in my life I find myself relating to its deeper meaning. We can’t control what’s around the bend, we can’t live in fear of the future, all the while not living in the present. Serenity means tranquility and peace, even through storms that rage in our lives.

  I know Gods love is faithful and does not change even when our circumstances are always changing! We are scared, a normal human emotions, but I put that in God’s hands. Knowing that im loosing for the temporary time, a place to call home, many take for granted.

 A lot of people  are pointing out to us, with the conditions of our apartment this is a blessing in disguise, sometimes when situations can’t be changed, by our doing, God steps in with a divine intervention, that’s how I see this, that’s how I choose to embrace this.

   One of my favorite scriptures is Isaiah 26:3 it says you will keep in perfect peace, him whose mind is steadfast because he trusts in you. As we get ready to take this by the reigns and do what we have to do, knowing that we won’t be left out there alone ask you as prayer warriors if you are, to pray on our behalf! Pray for protection from the lies of the evil one.

  Its not easy with my physical health and emotional health, both have been affected. I know there are many of you out there reading this, and your like feeling pressed down, feeling overwhelmed with life. May you don’t know how you will pray the bills, maybe your fighting for that disability that you need. You maybe be facing what my husband and I are up against soon.I know its scary, the road is rocky, but im here to encourage you, your not ALONE!!!

    Never alone. As we apply for emergency housing, I pray it comes through quickly, that god will bless my husband efforts in finding the right job.I pray for Provision, wisdom, peace and strength for all of you! Your world may shake, you may face unimaginable circumstances, but Gods love stands fast and secure, it cannot be shaken or quenched! I’ll continue to update! Thank you to all my family,best friends, friends, IC/Fibro family and church family! Thank you all!