The Simplicty of Tranqulity Through our Pain~



 Good evening readers, its Natalie again, I feel like I am talking to an old friend. Tonight’s topic is “Tranquility” and I find tranquility in writing, it gives my heart joy and it gives me the opportunity to step outside of my circumstances and focus on you… the reader….Writing is my comfortable familiar.
 I feel like were chatting over hot coco, ohhh that sound so yummy about now. My prayer is you find some form of tranquility in reading my blog, that even for a moment, you can step outside of what you feel and  let your mind take you away, away to a place where there is no pain, and tears are not known.
 This entry is not just for those who have IC or Fibro, but also for all chronic pain patients. I’m in pain as I write this, as I know so many of you are right there with me feeling it wish I could reach through this screen and hug you it don’t matter if I know you or not, we are bonded with ties that  cannot  come undone.
 Ive realized, and I know how precious life is, here today, gone tomorrow. Living within our bodies is no easy task. The Simple joys of life can be forgotten or pushed aside, when our bodies are racked with agonizing pain, and our hearts are heavy in anguish, because well we just get so tired of being sick and tired, don’t you. I just want a break; I want my pain to take a break. I pray for this day and night, but until cures are found and better treatments, I press you for all of you.
 Even though I’m stuck in as body I cannot escape, I am learning to focus on the beauty amidst my tears, finding my simplicity in my tranquil places. Even through all my doctor’s appointments and sleepless nights.
 Our new apartment we moved into we love, its on the third floor overlooking a river   that I can look out at through our big picture window in our living room. It faces some woods. Within the first few days we were here, I was looking our window at Gods creation and just taking in the tranquil view of God’s creation .In the early morning hours, the sun was just coming up, peeking through the tops of the trees, and there in the tree were a few robins sitting on a branch. I couldn’t take my eyes off of this  little creature.
   I took some pictures, then few days later while looking out my window, I saw some blue jays, I was in awe, I’ve never had this view anywhere ive lived. the last place we lived for 15 years, when I looked out my window, all I saw was the house next door that was falling apart .Wow I’m so thankful, every day since we moved into this place I thank God literally every mo9rning when I open my eyes .A Tranquil view so many take for granted.
 Simple beauty so many take for granted, lifes simple beautiful treasures are not bought , but felt with the heart and seen sometimes with our eyes. Yesterday I had a nice talk on the phone with my grandmother who is 83 years old, she means the world to me, she giggled about something and my heart and mind took a picture of that moment, moments we want to remember, the simple sweet memories that bring tranquility to our daily lives.
    I was watching a movie with don my husband and without even saying a word, he slips his hand into mine and squeezes it or Talking on the phone to one of my best friends or Laughing or hearing my goddaughter or godson give me the biggest hug and say I love you auntie.  hearing  one of my best friends daughters tell me, she loves me after she spent all day with me .sometimes pain binds us and we need to find OUR “quiet peace” the place, the memory, the moment, the person who gives us tranquility. Sometimes the pain is so severe it’s as if we can’t feel anything, but the pain. it’s in those moments. I push through and look for those little reminders that true beauty and tranquility is around me every single day of my life. if I just look a little harder, I could focus on all that’s wrong, I could let negativity consume me thoughts, but id be robbing myself of the  joy and love I have in the many blessings I have.
   My prayer is you find yours. If you read something encouraging, let those words soak into your soul, let them drench your spirit. Look for the small glimmers of hope. You deserve it I deserve it. We need tranquil moments in our lives that we can to escape to. Memories we can build on and love that we can feel fiercely. What is your beautiful tranquil moment?

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  1. UnknownFebruary 24, 2015 at 9:37 AM

    Natalie,
    This is a very thought provoking post. I lived how you described your picture window and looking out at God's beautiful creation.

    One of my beautiful tranquil moments is getting a good nights sleep, waking up with my kitty beside me feeling her warmth and hearing her purr. Then it is even better when I realize it is Saturday and I can spend the day praying and studying God's word.

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