My Letter To IC~




              Dear IC; where do I begin to express how I feel about you? It’s time to tell you what I truly feel in my heart of hearts, deep in my soul. I will be as Honest, and blunt as I need to and I don’t care if you are hurt, you have done enough damage to me physically and mentally. I no longer am going to let you, run me down, like you’ve done all this time. You think you’re so strong, you think you can chain me to this disease .I’ve got NEWS for you….. Are you listening, I don’t just want you to hear this, I want you to listen. Its time I take my life back…. And nothing is going to stop me from doing so.
              You have run over me, but I’m getting back up….
             You have made me feel like I’m nothing…WELL I’m SOMEBODY and I’m Somebody Special!
             You have tried to crush my dreams and Hopes…WELL, I’m taking them back and I’m running with      them.
               You have come between people I love and I, WELL…. If you can’t love me at worst, then you sure don’t deserve me at my best.
             You have tried to Steal my HOPE and JOY…WELL MY Hope is built on Jesus, and even when all else around me sinks, HE stands FIRM~
              You have worn me down…. To the core to the bare bones…WELL I’m pulling myself up by the bootstraps and you JUST try to KEEP me down it WONT WORK any longer~
         You make me feel guilty…WELL I do what I CAN and what I CAN is GOOD ENOUGH~
         NO LONGER…. NO Longer do you CONFINE me..NO LONGER do you DEFINE ME…NO longer do you Hold me down…..I'M a WARRIOR… A FIGHTER of the STRONGEST Kind and I WILL NOT back Down~

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  1. Char AndrewsJanuary 29, 2014 at 3:56 PM

    To the core to the bare bones-I can't tell you how many times I have heard this expression when someone is describing what IC has done to them. Keep fighting like a girl! You know you have it in you and I know you do too!

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